On January 22nd, 2019 I was healed. After 3 years of suffering miserably from endometriosis, limb pain, depression and anxiety, I was healed. I was healed! It was the first time that I have physically felt with my physical being the hand of the Holy Spirit on me. Feeling Him so vividly that even to this day it makes me shutter.

I have been praying for 3 years for Jesus Christ to take this pain from me. To heal me. 3 years of ups and downs. Thinking okay maybe it “worked” this time. Maybe He finally healed me. I would get down on my elbows and knees and beg for him to take away this pain. I needed to take care of my babies and my husband! Why wasn’t He just healing me so I could enjoy these blessings that He has given to me!? His word, the bible, says that He WILL heal you if you pray to Him for healing. I was resentful sometimes and so mad. I lost my faith at times. But He always pulled me back in to Him. Gracefully and perfectly. I think about all those years that I suffered and my family suffered, and it would be so easy for me to be mad and feel as though I “lost” those years. It would be SO easy to think that, and let it drag me down. But I don’t think that, I’m choosing to SEE the greatness that has come out of my suffering and my family’s suffering. My husband and I grew closer. We grew closer together to God. What is more important than that? Nothing. I’m not saying that God CHOSE to wait and heal me so that we can benefit and learn something through our pain. That is not how God works. HE does not play games. Ask to be healed and He WILL heal you. He couldn’t heal me all those years because my mind and my heart weren’t in the right spot. I was praying for healing with the mindset of “so that I can take care of my family, or you said that you will heal if we ask.” All of these things are true but it didn’t allow the Lord to heal me. I was healed when I meditated in His Word. I’m going to tell you exactly what changed everything.

I was reading in my Bible Faith Study Course by Kenneth E. Hagin, and I was reading on healing. This particular chapter was focusing on steps of healing. It spoke about how you get faith to be healed by hearing the Word. So I decided to read a few scriptures and I meditated on them. I prayed for God to bring to me what He wanted me to read and to open my mind to knew ways of thinking. I was moved mostly by one thought, it IS my will to be healed. IT IS MY WILL! By the blood of Christ, by His word, AND his ACTIONS it is my will to be healed. No matter what! Jesus died on the Cross, He suffered, not only to save our souls, but so that YOU WILL be healed, so I will be healed. This changed everything for me. This was a God given enlightenment for me! I was SO focused on my faith to be healed. I would feel my faith isn’t strong enough that’s why he isn’t healing me. I’m not truly forgiven, that’s why He isn’t healing me. I’m not with a leader of the church, that’s why I’m not being healed. I was not focused on one thing, THE one thing! Jesus suffered and died on the cross so that I do not have to suffer! By His blood, by His ACTIONS it is MY WILL to be healed! No matter what! Yours too! No matter what, whether it is in Gods plan to take you to heaven in 90 years or tomorrow, it is YOUR WILL TO BE HEALED! Whether you are in a church filled with leaders of the church, or in a room with a non-believer, it is your will to be healed. I meditated on this. I meditated not only on His Word, but on His actions. I laughed and smiled and became so excited, because He truly made me feel this in a new way.

Then it happened. I was lying in my bed with my 3 year old daughter. We started praying out loud. It was my first prayer since my enlightenment. We prayed for mommy to be healed. I prayed for Jesus Christ to heal me because by His blood, by His actions, it is my will to be healed. And then within 2 seconds with an oblivious innocent 3 year old at my side, I felt the hand of the Holy Spirit swipe over my bladder and uterus from my right side to my left side and wipe all of my sickness away. I flinched midway through His “swipe” but He kept going. Even when I lost focus on my prayer and was almost in disbelief that it was happening, He kept going. I laid back down flat on my back looking up a the ceiling probably with a face on like a deer in headlights and I laughed out loud and cried a little. I knew I was healed. I knew it and felt so much more. An overwhelming peace and feeling of okay now we can move on from this burden just flooded me. I walked around for 2 weeks in disbelief, probably still with the deer in headlights look on my face more often than I would like to admit. I wasn’t in disbelief that I was healed, I was in disbelief of how I was healed. How beautiful and REAL He made himself to me. How close the Holy Spirit was to me. How graceful and beautiful He is. Thank you God. Amen.

I truly pray that this inspires someone to open their hearts to Christ. It is so easy to think about God’s Word and push it away with “what ifs” and “well no that doesn’t make sense” but if you just put all of that aside and open your heart and soul to the Lord and to His word, and make the choice to let him work in you, then amazing things will happen. God Bless!

Sincerely,

Suzette Lorraine

Here are a few of my personal symptoms that I have recorded.

1. Endometriosis “flare ups” may occur from an imbalance of hormones.
2. Imbalance of hormones can occur from certain foods you eat, such as soy. Soy can cause your hormones to fluctuate. Flax seed and animal products can also effect my hormones causing endo flare ups.
3. Endometriosis has been found on every organ in the body, including the brain, and EXCEPT for the spleen. But mine is on my bladder and spine. No sign of endometriosis on my ovaries.
4. There may be a connection between endometriosis and gut health. When I did a candida cleanse, I noticed significant improvement in my Endo pain.
5. Caffeine causes significant Endo pain, especially in my lower back.
6. Alcohol contributes to my endo pain if consumed consistently.
7. Gluten creates an Endo flair up in my body in more ways than just abdominal pain. It causes short term memory loss and sensory slowness. I will see something, ex. someone reaching their hand out to me, and not realize what they are doing for at least 3 seconds.

Here are a few ways that I have tried to manage my pain. Disclosure: I am not a doctor, these are all just my personal beliefs and findings. Always talk to your doctor before making any changes in your diet. My experiences are my own. Your results may very.

• Start your morning with a peaceful and positive attitude. As hard as it is when you are in excruciating pain, it has helped me tremendously to be positive about it. God is going to work in me through this and do amazing things.
• Record reaction to every type of food. I have a reaction within 30 minutes if I have eaten something that my Endo does not like.
• I start my morning with hot water, lemon, and ACV to cleanse and detox. Also great source of Vitamin C.
• I stay away from Gluten, caffeine, soy, dairy, and red meat. I am actually practicing a vegan diet ( no dairy or meat).
• Staples in my diet include: black beans, lentils, brown rice, hemp seeds, chia seeds, berries, spinach, tomatoes, coconut milk, vegetable broth, nutritional yeast, turmeric, black pepper, garlic, ginger. If you are interested in seeing some of my recipes or what I eat in a day, let me know in the comments below!
• When I start to feel pain I try to increase blood flow in my lower abdomen and hips by doing yoga and lower abdominal exercises. If you are interested in seeing these exercises let me know in the comments below.

If you are someone who has endometriosis, then I’m here for you sister! We need to stick together and support each-other with kindness and love. If you know someone who has endometriosis, then I hope this helps you to understand a little bit more and I encourage you to support that person and fill them with as much positivity and love that you can!

With love,

Suzette

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